Build

We have become so accustomed to it that we no longer wish it away. We keep it locked inside. We build it a shrine in our subconscious and offer our happiness as a burnt sacrifice. Why would we bother looking for the silver lining when we can paint the entire cloud grey? We have become masters of the trade. Masters of relishing the pain.

We keep sticking around hoping the harmattans will change their course and our situations will change. Perhaps our husbands will stop being abusive. Perhaps our wives will acknowledge and accord the respect we deserve. Perhaps we can forgive and free ourselves of the guilt we harbour. Perhaps the winds will bring rain to the Sahara. But we have to realise its up to us to change their course.

Desire. We need to want our peace of mind so much that we make peace with people we have wronged;so much that we make a choice not to stay in abusive relationships; so much that we forgive and rid ourselves of the guilt we harbour; so much that we put in enough effort to ensure we succeed in whatever endeavours we pursue.

Being human makes us susceptible to pain, anger, jealousy , anxiety , fear, guilt and all those other not so pleasant emotions we would rather not have. Through it all society expects us to maintain our balance, our state of mind. For the same reason of being human, we lose control at times. Don’t let it happen if you can help it. Find an outlet for whatever you are feeling. Go for yoga , enrol for the gym or even cry while holding your pillow tight if you have, just ensure you don’t speak in anger or make rush decisions if you are not in your right state of mind. There will always be repercussions. But if you fail along the way, you pick yourself up and you build again. You build yourself .